Mistilteinn – the wisdom of the mistletoes

I am the bone of my sword.

Steel is my body, and fire is my blood.

I have created over a thousand blades.

Unknown to Death.

Nor known to Life.

Have withstood pain to create many weapons.

Yet, those hands will never hold anything.

So, as I pray – “Unlimited Blade Works”.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.

(No, i assure you. I don’t get a strawberry shortcake nor a blue haired cute girl to ogle at while eating cake.)

Continue reading 抒情闲谈 #9…

As I continued to do the integration questions, I got increasingly frustrated at myself for how I never get the correct answer one after another. At that very point, I was teaching people about Sec4 Organic Chemistry, which i did it so effortlessly as though I was eating hazelnut chocolates ( Interestingly,hazelnut goes better with chocolates than almonds, cashews, Raisins or Macademias)

It was suddenly at that point where i felt the sense of ….. darkness.

What will happen if  I couldn’t get calculus right? What about Chemistry and Biology then? What about Literature then?

I took a look at some of the blogs of the senpais and peers, they’re always esoterically filled with happy events and interesting posts.

It struck me too see how they are coping so well, It’s as if they’re dealing with it as easy as eating hazelnut chocolates.

And here I am, struggling with the basics. Here I am.

Sometimes I wonder if I am overrating myself, If my aim of Imperial was all talk and bull, If i can even survive. If  I’m just another sacrifice of the world like Angie and Joyce.

All of a sudden, I feel so alone and helpless that I can feel my heart crying. I get this impression I may need to see a doctor in woodbridge soon.

Soon, I think I’ll start feeling the tears on my eyes too, instead of my heart. It’s shameful to see how the one who used to call himself the emperor to fall into such a muddy swamp just trying to even stay afloat. It really is…saddening.

When you’re disempowered, you start to wonder if you can even win fate and its never ending cycle of eugenics and culture capital in the first place.

Seriously, I was too demoralised and busy to keep up with a new post.( My posts don’t ridiculously rant and rave in an uncivilised manner you know!) Anyway, I chanced upon this weird Quiz while visiting ce_lau’s blog . You’re given a whole set of statements and if they are true you put a cross. Then adding up all the cross will determine how old you’ll marry. ( I don’t thinks this really works anyway…)

[] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[ x] You do your own laundry
[ ] You vote every election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
[ ] You balance your own checkbook
[ ] Your parents have better things to say than your friends
Total: 3

[ x] You show up for school/college/work every day early.
[x] You always carry a pen in your pocket/purse
[x] You’ve never gotten a detention
[x] You have never smoked a cigarette
[ ] You have never gotten completely trashed
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[ x] You’ve watched talk shows.
[x] You know what ‘credibility’ means without looking it up
[x] You drink coffee[caffiine] at least once a week.
Total: 11

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[] When you say you’re going to do something you do it.
[x] My parents trust me
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[] You can make adults laugh without being stupid
[] You remember to water the plants
[x] You study when you have to
[x] You pay attention at school/college
[x] You remember to feed your pets
Total: 17

[x] You can spell ‘experience’ without looking it up.
[ ] You work out on a regular basis.
[x] You clean up your own mess
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[x ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[x ] You have gained weight since middle/high school
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don’t need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[] You can type quickly
Total: 22

[ ] You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[ ] Most of all your friends are older than you are
[ ] You can say no to staying out all night
[x] You use the internet every day
[x] Your wardrobe hasn’t changed in a while
[ x] You can read a book and actually finish it
Total: 25.

o.o. *Goes Hiatus*