抒情闲谈 #9
August 28, 2009 at 11:53 pm | In Uncategorized | 2 Comments
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME.
(No, i assure you. I don’t get a strawberry shortcake nor a blue haired cute girl to ogle at while eating cake.)
- Intermission #2 -
August 9, 2009 at 1:02 am | In retarded rantings / fillers | Leave a Comment
Eyes On Me
Vocal: Faye Wong
Whenever sang my songs
On the stage, on my own
Whenever said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real or just my fantasy
You’d always be there in the corner
Of this tiny little bar
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you?
Maybe yes, maybe no
I kind of liked it your way
How you shyly placed your eyes on me
Oh, did you ever know?
That I had mine on you
Darling, so there you are
With that look on your face
As if you’re never hurt
As if you’re never down
Shall I be the one for you
Who pinches you softly but sure
If frown is shown then
I will know that you are no dreamer
So let me come to you
Close as I wanted to be
Close enough for me
To feel your heart beating fast
And stay there as I whisper
How I loved your peaceful eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had mine on you
Darling, so share with me
Your love if you have enough
Your tears if you’re holding back
Or pain if that’s what it is
How can I let you know
I’m more than the dress and the voice
Just reach me out then
You will know that you’re not dreaming
Sometimes, We try so hard just to get something very simple…
抒情闲谈 #8
August 2, 2009 at 9:16 pm | In Uncategorized | 3 Comments
As I continued to do the integration questions, I got increasingly frustrated at myself for how I never get the correct answer one after another. At that very point, I was teaching people about Sec4 Organic Chemistry, which i did it so effortlessly as though I was eating hazelnut chocolates ( Interestingly,hazelnut goes better with chocolates than almonds, cashews, Raisins or Macademias)
It was suddenly at that point where i felt the sense of ….. darkness.
What will happen if I couldn’t get calculus right? What about Chemistry and Biology then? What about Literature then?
I took a look at some of the blogs of the senpais and peers, they’re always esoterically filled with happy events and interesting posts.
It struck me too see how they are coping so well, It’s as if they’re dealing with it as easy as eating hazelnut chocolates.
And here I am, struggling with the basics. Here I am.
Sometimes I wonder if I am overrating myself, If my aim of Imperial was all talk and bull, If i can even survive. If I’m just another sacrifice of the world like Angie and Joyce.
All of a sudden, I feel so alone and helpless that I can feel my heart crying. I get this impression I may need to see a doctor in woodbridge soon.
Soon, I think I’ll start feeling the tears on my eyes too, instead of my heart. It’s shameful to see how the one who used to call himself the emperor to fall into such a muddy swamp just trying to even stay afloat. It really is…saddening.
When you’re disempowered, you start to wonder if you can even win fate and its never ending cycle of eugenics and culture capital in the first place.
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